"JEM" (jem)
09/22/2014 at 02:07 • Filed to: None
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"JEM" (jem)
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No matter how smart you are, no matter how talented, someone will come along and put you in your place.
In this case, it was a former teenage girl -friend- many years ago who I just learned has succumbed to cancer. We were the sort of kids who knew what we had for minds and loved hanging out and quasi-arguing because, well, what else were we going to do? She was brilliant and beautiful and could knock you down with any knowledge yet still play it off like nothing and make you feel better.
Sorry for laying a heavy one on you oppo, hence, the Senna.
SmoresTM Has No Chill (O==[][]==O)
> JEM
09/22/2014 at 02:36 |
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I'm sorry, JEM.
Cancer is, and will continue to be, one of the darkest phenomena of our fragile being. For a year and a half I lived with a cancer patient, never truly accepting what he was going through on the other side of our hallway. When finally, after so much time, my step-father was given some good news and I no longer had to be strong for my parents, I crumbled. To this day I still think it's ridiculous. I was fine, though essentially in denial, until he was okay, and then I broke down. I can't even begin to imagine how it must feel to actually lose someone to cancer. My heart goes out to you, and her, and her family. I hope your grief is healthy and that her memory never loses the immensely positive light that I can see from that little paragraph alone. She sounds like an amazing person.
Zipppy, Mazdurp builder, Probeski owner and former ricerboy
> SmoresTM Has No Chill (O==[][]==O)
09/22/2014 at 03:58 |
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I second this. I lost my grandfather to cancer, and almost lost my aunt before that. My grandfather was a major inspiration for me to get into the automotive industry. His career of choice was automotive engineering, but ended up doing civil engineering instead, he became among the best Brazilian engineers, and made countless projects around the country, all of which are still standing proudly.
I always was in denial, I constantly kept telling myself, "he will make it"
Leon711
> JEM
09/22/2014 at 07:13 |
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I'm sorry to hear that.
Cancer is a horrifying thing that can hit anyone at any time. I lost my mum when I was 15 to Cancer and it was a dark time for me, living in denial, assuming that everything would turn out OK. we had her at home for a while but she requested to go to a Hospice as her way to ease the burden on us. As time went by I barely visited, it was all part of the denial, I didn't want it to be real but I had to visit her, So I made myself go. I went alone, and it was awful the cancer was very advanced, I knew that she knew I was there, she kept trying to wake up to see me using all her strength. I just sat there crying whilst holding her hand.
I left and went about my business knowing the end was probably quite close, still I went out to Army Cadets that night and when I got back no one was home because the hospice had called and my family went down there, she was still alive but struggling.
The next day we headed down there, friends and family and we all talked about the good times we had, it got to point where no one had eaten and we needed a break so we all left with the intention of coming back in about an hour. Within minutes of leaving she passed away. I forever live with the fact that I didn't visit enough and didn't cherish her last few months and it saddens me everyday. Now I try everything I can to make her proud of me, I stayed at college, got a decent education, I'm now an Engineer and I'm with a girl she would like, and I hope she is proud of me.
I'm sorry for the heavy response but I needed to get it out there.
Cancer sucks.
Lekker
> JEM
09/22/2014 at 10:47 |
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My words, thoughts and prayers go with you. I lost my grandmother to cancer two years ago, within a month of us learning she was sick to begin with. Today is her birthday. I'm sorry, JEM.